Is This You?
This community is a good place to be if your life is pivoting and you are craving creative processes because you suspect this will relieve some persistent challenging emotions you are feeling lately. What do I mean by “your life is pivoting” and “challenging emotions?” Good question! I mean a few things:
You might feel a longing. A searching. You’re not sure what it is but you know it’s there. It is there. If you give it a blank page and paint, or an instrument, or a dance floor, it might reveal itself, and that might feel freeing…honest…ecstatic. Some days you hear yourself saying:
Something is trying to burst out of me. It is persistently pulsing and pushing. Some other thing, I don’t know what, has been blocking it, but it’s time to start poking around. Art feels like a force that can break my flow free.
You might feel overwhelmed. The water is high and you know you need help. Maybe you lost something you love: your health, your partner, your aliveness, your career, your community. With this loss came a sobering clarity that is reorienting your priorities.
Some days you might hear yourself say:
I’ve been working overtime on things that don’t matter that much and am in danger of losing what matters most.
I’ve lost myself and I need me back. I matter.
Other days you finally feel that you are the love of your life. Now that you know what really matters you are committed to devoting your genius to this for the remaining days of your precious life.
You might have been overwhelmed in the past but there was no time or support to heal what got hurt. For example, a lot of us were deeply overwhelmed and hurt during the worst of the Covid pandemic, and many of us just pushed the hurt down and carried on. Some days you are aware that these kinds of hurt are a weight you carry. How are these hurts impacting you right now? Sleeplessness? Being stuck in urgency? Avoiding important conversations? Losing the ability to even consider trying something new? Living on the brink of tears?
How would it feel to remove these hooks from your heart and rinse it in self-love and creativity? Would now be a good time to call forward the most powerful healer in your life: you?
If life is a play, you might be starting a new act. You are able to work less and give more time to other parts of your life. You are no longer too busy to create or explore, though your current habits revolve around an outdated version of yourself and you’d like help establishing new priorities. Some days you are living your personal version of:
The house I raised my family in feels empty, and lately, I do too. I actually have time to create and an art studio space, yet I haven’t unpacked my boxes of paint or picked up my instrument and played. Do I want my grandkids to inherit a box of unused art supplies or a box of paintings from me? What do I need to start flowing?
I dreamed about the freedom of working less my whole life, but the reality of more time and space feels daunting, or lonely, or both. Instead of writer’s block I have retirement block. Grief keeps bubbling up. My work friends only have time to connect at work, so we don’t spend time together anymore.
Other days you hear yourself say:
I’m ready to meet the real, gorgeous ME, the uncensored, grown-up version of the kid I used to be, the one who poured their heart on to the page in art class and joined singalongs without hesitation. I am also ready to meet my people—honest, playful, brave, tender people who savor authenticity, who have lost all appetite for artifice, and who are genuinely hoping I show up to circle this week.
You might feel like you are frozen…and maybe you have been feeling this way for Way. Too. Long. Somehow the reservoir of your life, once teaming with dynamic and diverse interests, slowly hardened or narrowed. Some days you hear yourself say:
I want to feel something other than dread when I wake up in the morning.
Why am I sitting on a beautiful beach but still obsessing over the conflict I came here to rest from? Where did my wonder and joy go? It’s time to do whatever it takes to find them.
Other days you hear yourself say:
If desert flowers and toads can survive underground for years then bloom and bellow, so can I, and….I hear thunder….and I smell rain!
You might have big feelings that you're a little or a lot afraid of. You might be expressing your feelings in a way that hurts the people you love, yourself most of all. Some days you hear yourself say:
Why do I keep exploding and sinking in despair? If I don’t learn differently, I’m going to lose what I love. There are other ways to be, and I’m ready to learn them. My relationships are worth the effort, and so is my own growth.
Or…You might be scared of a diminishing patience for BS coupled with a growing capacity for living not only on your terms, but on your healthiest terms. On these days you might hear yourself say:
I tasted liberation at that weekend retreat, and…I’m not willing to limit this to an annual fling anymore. It’s time for pleasure and me to move in together and commit to each other for better or worse.
Important feelings run through all these calls to change. The kind of expression that beats at the heart of intuitive art creates healthy emotional flow. If you have been hesitating at the edge of a creative springboard, practicing this kind of art will give you the courage to leap and show many of the fears that are stalling you are not true. If you are trapped in the churn of too much emotion, this art will get you back on solid ground. If you are frozen, it will bring your feelings back into motion and melt emotional standstills. If you are bursting with joy, pleasure and liberation, this art cheers you on and helps you break ceilings that don’t need to be there anymore.
And you won’t be doing this alone. I will be walking beside you, and, if you choose to join a community healing circle, so will other courageous and creative folks, the kind of people who love realness. If all of this sounds like your kind of practice, chances are you are going to meet your people here.
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